Today marks 3 months that my baby girl decided to go home. I miss her so much. For some reason lately it is becoming a little bit harder then it was for me a couple of weeks ago. I catch myself day dreaming about her constantly. I wish Heaven had a phone so I could talk to her. Its so funny what I miss hearing now and I hated hearing before. I actually miss the sound of her feeding pump beeping. I knew when it beeped at me that meant her milk was out and it was mommy & angel time! Lately its taking all the strength I have not to cry throughout the day. I haven't been to her grave in over a week and half but when I go I don't feel her presence and I can never stop crying when we leave. Last Monday we ordered her headstone and it is beautiful. I cant wait for it to come in. When she was here I complained about how much I had to do and how I never got any sleep. Now I complain about not having enough to do and getting too much sleep. Its crazy to me how I have a job now and the work I do there doesn't even amount to the work I had to do with Adriana. For me though when I took care of her it wasn't work it was love.
I love you so much Adriana and I would give anything to hold you again. Hugs & Kisses baby girl.
About Me
- Ashley
- I am a 27 year old mommy who's beautiful Angel had to go home. I lost my baby on 3/30/2011. She was born with semi lobar holoprosencephaly and would have been 3 on 6/1/2011. I am starting to walk a brand new path but I am not alone. I have my angel walking right beside me and my wonderful husband,Gabriel, holding my hand as we begin our journey together.
Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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