A year has passed

I can't believe tomorrow will make a year since you got your wings and went home. I love you and miss you more and more each day. I know I do not post on my blog very much but sometimes it's hard for me to get the words out. Daddy and I are doing fine and we love knowing we have an angel walking with us everywhere we go. You are so special and I know without you so many things would not be possible. Adriana since you have been gone you have given me a different outlook on life. I don't take so many things for granted anymore and I try not to let so many things bother me. You have made me realize what I have is so important and not to sweat the small stuff. Thank you so much for the realization on life you have given me. You are truly one special little girl. I can remember the first day I held you and you just melted my heart. We had a connection that I had never felt before. I still hear your cry, see your smile, and feel your touch. Best of all I still have as many dreams about you as I did before you passed. It's funny because my dreams have always been about you running,playing,singing, & eating. I guess I always knew that one day you would be able to do those things. Baby girl we will bring you flowers tomorrow and you know mommy, they will be bright and colorful. We love you angel. XOXOXO

Missing You

It's been a couple of months since I have updated my blog because somedays it's hard to put the words together that I want to say. Ive been struggling lately with the holidays and knowing that a year will be here sooner then I thought it would. I know it's a new year but for some reason I feel like I have taken a step back instead of moving forward. Getting my puppy Daisy has helped a lot but she isn't you. I miss you so much Adriana Renae. I pray every night to have a dream about you just so I can feel close to you again. It's hard not to tear up when I think about you but if I held it all in I think I would go crazy. I miss my buddy I can talk to. You were such a good listener and always made me feel like I was on cloud nine. It's weird to see crocodile tears that are mine and not yours and I wake up with a empty feeling that I can't get rid of. Before it was easy to talk about you but lately it's getting harder. I know your in a better place and having so much fun. I feel so blessed knowing your an Angel doing all the things I knew you could do. I love you so much baby girl. I'll bring you some flowers soon. XOXOXO

Speechless

Well baby girl, it's been over 2 months since I have wrote on here an I am sorry. Mommy has had a rough few weeks especially with the holidays here. This is the first year that I don't care about putting up Christmas decorations. I have them up but I'm ready for them come to down. Daddy got me a puppy, Daisy, she reminds us of you. She is very prissy just like you used to be. Mommy doesn't have a lot to say except I love you and miss you. I wish you were here baby. Merry Christmas angel!

Coming home for the holidays

It's getting closer to the holiday season and I can't help but think about my angel. I catch myself getting teary eyed thinking about how she won't be here to celebrate Thanksgiving and Christmas with us. Knowing she is gone is also giving me a sense of happiness because now she gets to embrace all the joys of the holiday season with all of the beautiful angels in Heaven. Over the past few Christmas' that I got to spend with my angel, this last Christmas was the most memorable. She actually got to go visit all of our family and it was her first Christmas that she wasn't sick! I was so ecstatic! Having us all together was the best Christmas present I could ever want. I never really thought about God having a plan for everyone before they are born but losing Adriana has made me realize we are all put here on Earth to complete the plan God has in store for us. I believe Adriana was an Angel sent to Gabriel and myself to help make it as far as we have. Without her we wouldn't be blessed with everything that we have accomplished and received. I know it's going to be a hard holiday season this year but knowing I had the chance to spend time with my baby girl before she went home, makes it all better. This year I have already received my Christmas present, I now have a Angel walking every step with me. I love you Adriana Renae Reyna.

Another month has passed

I cant believe that it has been 7 months since you have been gone. I miss you so much Adriana Renae!!! I'm sorry but mommy doesn't have a lot to say this time but I do know that I love you so much. Daddy & I are doing good and we talk about you all the time. We love you angel.

180 Days is Heaven

Well baby girl another month has passed by since you've been gone. I can't believe tomorrow makes six months. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you and wish you were here with us. Since you have been gone so many things have happened but they have all been for the good. You have made mommy believe things truly happen for a reason and that God has our lives planned out for us before we are born. Adriana without you so many things wouldn't be possible. I just wish you were here to experience all of these things with us. I know you are having so much fun playing and being with all the other angels. Some days I just sit here and day dream about you running and playing and I can just see the smile on your face. I know you here me cry just about everyday but baby girl don't worry mommy is doing just fine. Sometimes the tears help me get thru the all the grieving stages and it's good for mommy to cry. Monday I am starting a new job and Adriana I need you to walk with me all day. I'm leaving all my friends behind but knowing you are going to be there i know my day will be perfect. I want to thank you for everything Adriana Renae because you are truly my Angel! I love you so much honey. I wish Heaven had a phone so I could call you every night and tell you I love you and give you a kiss thru the phone. Daddy says hi and he loves you. He sends some big kisses and hugs!! XOXOXO
We love you darlin. Sweet dreams!

150 Days In Heaven

Well baby girl tomorrow makes 150 days since you have been gone. I miss you so much everyday and I know lately I only update my blog every 30 days, but sometimes its so hard for mommy to get on here without crying. We love you so much and I hope you are having a blast with all the other Angels up there with you. I know you hear mommy pray to you because when I have had a bad day all I dream about that night is holding you. Your headstone is beautiful just like you honey. I love you so much but Mommy needs to go.